Friday, December 13, 2013

More thoughts on anti-depressants

I want to thank everyone for their comments. Some were jarring....and I wondered if they affected me that way because I wasn't on my antidepressant?! LOL

I want to be clear that I am not against medication. I believe that depression is a mental illness, and I have watched many many family members suffer from its affects. Many times it has led to substance abuse issues, violent angry outbursts, reckless behavior, catatonic behavior, I saw the effects of electric shock therapy on my sweet mom during a time where it was not as humane of a treatment as it is now. I have watched my daughter wrestle endlessly with deep debilitating life altering depression....I have used the reasoning of "If you had heart disease, diabetes, cancer, would take your meds! This is no different!" many many times.

My girl will probably be on meds the rest of her life. I have friends who will need their meds the rest of their lives. I am ok with that. I agree with that. I would personally commit to that if I felt like I needed that. Another friend mentioned she was on meds until they weren't working, then she stopped. Until that didn't work anymore, then she made the change to whatever it was that she was needing at that time. That is what I think I am doing. I was on my medication for 10 years. That is not just a minute...that is 10 freaking years. My whole life has changed in 10 years in some very dramatic ways. What worked 10 years ago may not be the best solution today.

The comment that really hit it for me was from my dear blogger friend Signe and she was actually commenting on my post before this last one and she said.... "I don't think your depressed. It sounds like your nervous if you can make it on your own or not." That was it! She put into words exactly what I was feeling and fretting about. Was I going to be ok? Could I really do this?

The answer is....we will see. If it stops being ok, I will seek out what I need....and now that I opened this door and invited you all in, I will keep you all posted!



Chelsie Charmed said...

My mom, was on anti depressants for a very long time and it seemed to work for her most days. Then finally after a year or two of having found her inner balance she decided to stop. Not by choice, at first. Her prescription ran out and she didn't have a family doctor anymore. Don't get me wrong she could of got refills if she really wanted to at the walk in clinic but she figure she would try and do with out. She was more emotional at first, and a little more sensitive to the things around her, which I think was normal since she was feeling everything more intensely now. But with some practice she got use to dealing with her feeling and relying on her logic more then her emotions. I think you will do fine, and that you will find your inner balance without the anti depressants if that's what you choose to do. Just takes time and practice, like with anything.
Good luck, and Take Care, Charmed :)

SoberMomWrites said...

I love so much that you're writing about this so open and honestly and giving a voice to all of those feelings many of us have had. I think if we were all more open about depression, meds and other treatments we'd go a long way to eliminating that damn stigma that exists.

You're my hero! Can't wait to see how this works out for you and to participate in this important discussion. Throw up the sash and let in the LIGHT!

You rock...


Mary Christine said...

I avoid this topic because the ignorance about depression is, well, depressing. What kind of antidepressants "numb" feelings? That is what depression feels like for me. If a medication makes me able to live like a human being rather than a robot, I am all for it and I don't care what people who have no idea what depression is think about it.

Depression is NOT a bad mood that you can just shake off. I always wished it was named something else, people think they know what it is because they had a bad day once, and they called that "being depressed." Very different from the debilitating illness called Major Depression.