Currently the step grand-kids are here along with baby Ruby. I am here to tell you that its much different, feels far more noble, to stay up all night with a crying newborn, rather than a crying puppy. We are watching her for a week while the kids work, do school and get ready to move to their own apartment where the pet deposit is paid and ready to receive the little
Molly and I usually text and talk everyday. So I was filling her in on the behavior of her little baby.....and she wasn't answering. Not only that, the messages were being sent as "text msgs" and not "i-messages." Something was wrong. I just knew it! I called her and her phone went right to voice mail. I texted her several times....the kind that say things like, "Answer me!"
Ok, I am about to share a true confession that will make you all feel much better about yourselves...this really is how crazy I can get. I am embarrassed to say it, but I am better than I used to be! In my mind, the only reasonable explanation was that she had been kidnapped from the dark parking lot after work. Or, maybe had gone out with friends after work and gotten drunk and then arrested. Maybe a DUI. Maybe an accident and she was dead and they just hadn't contacted me yet. In Molly's defense, any of these things would be totally out of character for her...and an accident can happen to anyone. In my world though, things can often spin out of control without anyone ever meaning for them to. Who sets out for a night of fun and plans on getting a DUI?
I laid awake listening to the puppy cry, watching her run around, and thinking about where Molly could be....She couldn't possibly just be asleep in her bed for the night?! Could she? I obsessed some more. This morning when I got up I thought I would give them until 10:00 and if I didn't hear from them I was going to start calling! I am ashamed to say that I checked the county jail website to see who was brought in during the night.
The good news is 10 came and went, I was out walking and I decided to wait to see how it all played out, because the reality was that she was probably fine. Sure enough my phone rang. "Mom! My God. I forgot my charger in the car and it was dark so I didn't want to go back out to get it. I was in bed asleep the entire time you were sitting up obsessing!"
I apologized, "I panicked."
"I see that." Poor thing.....can you imagine what it must be like having me for a mother?!
I got off the phone and cried on the trail. I haven't gotten tripped up like that in a long time. What happened? How can that craziness come out of nowhere and knock you flat down?
Thankfully, she is a forgiving girl. She knows where my craziness comes from. Later she texted me..."Its ok mama."
All I can do is try again next time.
Happy Easter everyone. I am thanking the Lord today for His redemptive power in our lives. I am so grateful for His unconditional love and His long-suffering patience.
PS: Those of you who have shared pictures of your precious kids with me.....I am still praying. I just want you to know.