Times of isolation and restoration.....

I am still here! I sure miss writing and so often find myself thinking after a chain of events….”I should write about this.” I think my blog just needs to be my stories. I can’t categorize it anymore to “just” recovery, or “just” end of life.” There is so much going on all of the time in so many areas, so many awarenesses and learning happening and I need to be able to mull it over and talk about it and this has always been my space for that.  So here I am once again…..

We are all on forced “lockdown” and Im loving it. I am loving the slower pace of everything and I wonder if this time can be, will be, a reset for the whole world….a time where we go back to more simple living, a slower pace, being kinder with one another. I am considered an “essential worker” a few days a week…so I keep my shopping and filling the car up and all of that sort of thing relegated to the days I have to go out. On the off days I stay home, for 24 hours at a time and I tell myself these are “the rules.” The dad is an essential worker with an “official” document that states he must be out and about when he is not working from home. LOL its like something from a movie!  

Of course that is my little bubble up in my mountain community. There are single momma’s who can’t go into work, who aren’t being paid, who are wondering how they will pay their rent, or feed their little family. Healthcare workers who are working with minimal supplies. The elderly and immune-compromised who are isolated and alone at home, wondering what to do with themselves. Let's not forget our homeless community, who all services have been shut down for. The economy is suffering through a tremendous hit….and then there is this virus traveling all over the world. 

Oddly enough, I am not afraid. I have no anxiety about all of this at all. I wonder if I am just numb after years of forging through some of the worst feelings and experiences I could have ever imagined, or am I just so naïve I think it won’t touch us, total denial as I cover my ears, close my eyes and sing. Or do I have a deep sustaining faith that is carrying me right now. LOL Probably a combination of all of the above. Blissfully ignorant, happy to be at home cleaning out closets and getting caught up on laundry. (I need my eye rolling emoji right here lol) 

I have a story to tell you, about my last client. It was such a sad, strange situation. I have lots to say about recovery and where we are today. What has worked for us and what absolutely did not work, what we did that would be considered traditional and healthy recovery…..but actually caused significant harm. As always these are just my stories and never ever meant to tell anyone else how to do their own life. 

More to come….. and much much love to all. 

Here’s to hoping we don’t all come out of this time of isolation with diabetes! (Little one keeps baking and I keep buying candy….because like TP, who knows when we will be able to buy it again!) 

Annette