So here we are.....
My "new" blog. You will see there are still some head nods here and there to my ties to the recovery world. I love that part of my life and it has brought so much healing to me, and introduced me to a compassionate and kind and merciful God. The gifts I have been given through this journey truly do radiate into all of my affairs.
Before I get started on my new venture...I wanted to share the relief I felt after my last post. That was a personal transition for me....it was finished. It really has nothing to do with "my girl" and her sobriety or lack of, or her behavior, her joy or her lack of. This isn't about her. Its about me releasing this weight I have carried for so long (all my life) of setting people who are out of control...straight.
Of course the minute I posted here, the minute I emailed The Partnership and said I was stepping down from coaching.....it all was challenged. Would I like to receive emails just so I can still be in the loop, news of opportunities to work on projects, I can return to coaching at any time I feel ready, my girl left for several hours and wasn't answering her phone, the next day she got a random call back to the clinic to be tested.....it was as if the minute I set my mind and heart in a direction, it was attacked and jostled and shaken.
"Are you sure you are done trying to right this boat? Nothing is finished. Nothing is set, Nothing is sure. If you let go now, God only knows what will happen!"
Ha! God only knows. God only knows....what a comfort that has come to be. I don't have to know. I don't have to have my finger on the pulse of every person I love. I can love and I can be free in my own spirit to have my own relationship God, not because I'm afraid I am losing my child or my world is about to implode....but just because God and I are good together. He accepts me and loves me for no reason other than I am His child.
More to come soon....
Before I get started on my new venture...I wanted to share the relief I felt after my last post. That was a personal transition for me....it was finished. It really has nothing to do with "my girl" and her sobriety or lack of, or her behavior, her joy or her lack of. This isn't about her. Its about me releasing this weight I have carried for so long (all my life) of setting people who are out of control...straight.
Of course the minute I posted here, the minute I emailed The Partnership and said I was stepping down from coaching.....it all was challenged. Would I like to receive emails just so I can still be in the loop, news of opportunities to work on projects, I can return to coaching at any time I feel ready, my girl left for several hours and wasn't answering her phone, the next day she got a random call back to the clinic to be tested.....it was as if the minute I set my mind and heart in a direction, it was attacked and jostled and shaken.
"Are you sure you are done trying to right this boat? Nothing is finished. Nothing is set, Nothing is sure. If you let go now, God only knows what will happen!"
Ha! God only knows. God only knows....what a comfort that has come to be. I don't have to know. I don't have to have my finger on the pulse of every person I love. I can love and I can be free in my own spirit to have my own relationship God, not because I'm afraid I am losing my child or my world is about to implode....but just because God and I are good together. He accepts me and loves me for no reason other than I am His child.
More to come soon....
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And you’re right, let God take over - you’ve worked hard. Time to rest and enjoy those grands. ♥️