My girl has been gone for 2 weeks now. I don't know what this means, I don't know the future for her or for us as a family with or without her. I have heard that shes not doing well. I put her into God's hands, step back, and hope for the best.
I have the family map app and I track her phone to see if she is on the move.....she is all over about a 100 square mile area. She has a whole new group of people "friends" that she is with.
I pray for her. That is all I can do at this point. We will pack her things up in the next few weeks and clean out her apt. Our door will always be open to her...maybe not to live here, but to grab a meal, to sit for a minute, have a shower.
I was thinking today about how unnatural it is to have to let go of one of your children. The thought occurred to me that the dad could let go of me and I would not become this combustible traveling woman. I could let go of one of the other kids and they would not set out on a mission to self destruct. Addiction rules her life for today.