Sunday, April 27, 2014

I did it!

First, I would like to thank everyone for all of the very encouraging and kind comments you left for me on my last post. I sat there reading them and thinking, "I LOVE my blogging friends." You made me laugh and cry and smile and feel better! You reminded me of so many good principles that have gotten me through many a hard time in the past. So thank YOU all so very much.

I spent the week working at finding my center again. I am still searching. I can tell that I am not myself, but its getting better.

 My girl left on Wednesday for 30 days. The dad did the dropping off this time. Before she left she planted some morning glory seeds and zinnia seeds that she had harvested from her flowers last year, into a half barrel that I use for tomato plants each year. She said, "The morning glories will grow all along the deck rail mom and the zinnias will come up in front of them and fill in the barrel. It will be beautiful for you!" This sweet girl just breaks my heart.

I  walked my half marathon yesterday with my friends! It was so fun...we moved our arms to propel ourselves along, we ate gummy bears for energy, we talked and laughed, we would find someone just ahead and make them into our pace car.....we had to keep up with them. We ended up finishing 13.1 miles in 3 hours and 33 minutes. My goal was to complete it in under 4 hours and I did it! By almost a half hour. So that is my base I have something to work toward beating.

The weather was cool which really helped. I don't know how we would have done in the beating down Sacramento heat.

We met a young couple afterwards when we all were reading our results. She had walked it and he was her cheering section. She explained that every thing she has ever done, she had always come in dead they follow her in and close the track. She felt like it was all just too demoralizing and she had given up ever doing anything again. A lot of time went by and she decided to try again with this race. She took off in front of us and we all returned around the same time. Her husband then explained that she had had a "life event" and decided she wanted to really live. She went from never doing anything to getting out in the world and trying new things.

They made such an impact on me.....her for being so young and so sweet and so thrilled with her accomplishment after having gone through God knows what and being out there pushing forward. Him for being so supportive. He was so proud of her and genuinely joyful at her success.

We all have life events. We all do. Things that shake our whole world and change our center, that put everything into perspective for us, that help us prioritize our lives and help us narrow down what we will really commit ourselves to.  I know that I am committed to our reality. Not what I want it to be, but to what it is at this very moment. I want to live in what is real.....even when it is ugly and hurts. I really do believe that the only way to overcome is to look straight at it and make our way through. To cut away the layers of weeds and the overgrown branches and create a new path that is clear, that we can navigate in freedom. Nothing will hold us back like lies or denial of our reality. We will be able to soar freely in our truth with the light shining all around us.

Anyway....thank you again for being here and for taking the time to comment.
Much much love to all.....


Syd said...

Thanks for sharing your half marathon victory. I am proud of you! And you know that all of us who read you have your back--maybe only in cyber space but you have it.

amy said...

Woot woot! That's awesome. :)

You never know what might change you forever. What a great post. I'm praying for your girl. Xoxo

Mary Christine said...

Congrats on the race Annette. I am so excited for you. It sounds like you are going to do more?

The medal is really pretty!

kberman said...

Annette, You are truly one of my heroines. I have reposted this for Emotional Sobriety. I thank you for your courage to find joy in your daily life. And, I know you are like me--some days are harder than others. Remembering to restart my day at any time has saved me many times. Even if it is at 11 pm, I have turned it over. Love, Kathy

Dad and Mom said...

Congrats on finishing the race. Alive no less! Good to hear from you and we all knew you would do it.

Liz said...

Good for you Annette! What an accomplishment! Prayers for your girl...