I hope everyone had a good Christmas. I am trying to recover from mine. It was so stressful at my house if the truth be told. My son always brings his dogs and Molly's of course live here now....7 dogs total. It was too much. We were shuffling them all in and out in shifts, I knocked on a bedroom door which got them all barking at the same time, it was just constant dog maintenance. This year felt like so much work.
One of my kids holds resentments toward me and that leaked out in various forms. I have made amends numerous times, owned my stuff, acknowledged my mistakes, apologized all over the place....but this particular child is still angry deep inside himself and I am the focus. Not fun. I am thinking of taking an idea from a blogger friend of mine, Anna over at Let Go Hang On, and beginning to send mail with notes and photos to remind him of good times we have shared. Whether he lets go or not is out of my control, but I can extend a hand of restoration to him.
I have a second client moving into a facility. This month alone, I will have lost 2800.00 in income. I am so tired though, I don't care. I am concerned, but I don't have enough energy to do much about it. I am waiting to see what unfolds. I need a break, but can't afford to take one. What a predicament.
So with the above in mind, I am focusing on being still and knowing that God is God and I am not Him. He has a plan....I just don't know what it is yet.
Glad its over and I can put my house back together again.
Much love to all.....