I went to the baby shower yesterday and got to see several of my girlhood friends. The stories are complex of how we all met....no simple, "We went to grade school together." No, our families were in and out of cultish religions together. lol We did eventually go to school together off and on. We were even all homeschooled together at one point.
It was an interesting day. A lot of fun, but I hate to say, no real connections. Molly was with me and she said, "I can't believe all of these women were your friends at one time." Think "the country mouse and the city mouse." lol Most of them were about high heels, diamonds, and Coach purses and then there is me....I had on some flat Old Navy sandals that cost maybe 10 bucks, my old suede purse that I've used for over a year, and my criteria for a car is if it has AWD. I did wear a big beaded bracelet and I glanced at Molly at one point and said, "Good thing I wore the bracelet."
It really was good to see everyone, but I did leave feeling like.....I don't know what. I just don't do surfacey or small talk anymore. When I was leaving home for the day, the dad said, "This should be interesting. You are a very changed person from when they knew you." When we left the party one thing I did feel was that I am good with who I am. That felt really good....to leave somewhere and not feel less than anyone else. They are fine the way they are too....we are different people and that is ok.
I am still planning on continuing my "spiritual journey series." I have just been super busy. School starts Wednesday though... and I am hoping like no other that that helps me to get into a better routine.
For tomorrow though...we are off to a water park all day! Our last big celebration before we go back to the rigors of daily school.
I have been reading all of you on my phone...sorry for typos and short comments. lol