I am seeing more and more that really, it doesn't matter what I do or don't do. I will never be able to save anyone. Other people's lives are out of my control. I can pull them close, love them well, let them go, detach with love, react in anger, react in patience, kick them out, let them stay, mind my own business, share my ideas....but really, what they choose, what compels them to action...either good or bad, is ultimately, most definitely out of my control.
Faith is believing in what I can't see. Faith for me is believing that even when something is the absolute worst, the most heartbreaking, You are still in charge, in control and I don't need to be afraid. You walk with me through the grief. I am not alone. I thank you for that. I only need to open the door and let you in. Respond. You are here with me.
I am seeing that when I make decisions they are only effective for me and my life. They are about creating the most vibrant life, the most happy, fulfilling, peaceful and calm life that I want to have. That I am able to have. My decisions only have the power to change my own existence. No one elses.
It all will go the way it will go and I don't get to have a say in that, or control over that, because its not my life I am trying to mend. I get to live in faith each and every day that you see all and you love your children perfectly. Even the one's who are broken. Maybe them the most....you leave the 99 to go after the 1. Aren't all of us that lost lamb at one time or another? Because of that I put my faith in you, the Faithful One.